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Anxiety feels like failure, no matter how well life is going.
It feels like panic.
Throat clenched, stomach in knots. Like there is another person inside, scratching to get out of this body.
In what seems like a million years ago, I was a hairstylist in Seattle, WA.
In 2005, when I was still in Cosmetology School, I walked past two large statues that stopped me in my tracks. I looked in and saw hairstylists wearing all black, busily moving about. Loud music, gorgeous people. I wanted in.
It was the coolest salon I'd ever seen and I decided, "I'm going to work here one day."
The only thing holding you back is YOU, and your bullshit story as to why you can't live the life you want.
I'm so guilty of doing this. We're all guilty. We dream big dreams and then talk ourselves out of them. We think about the amazing life we want, and then come up with all of the ways it's not going to happen.
We sabotage our success before we even get out of bed in the morning.
I read the book, 'Best Year Yet' by Jinny Ditzler in 2010, and although I haven't read it since then, the idea of the book really stuck with me. While I can't remember what the ten questions are that have you review your goals, accomplishments and expectations from the previous year, I've kept with me the basic premise: make each year better than the last one. I'd like to think that I've been doing this for the past five years: taking trips to Maui, going to the gym regularly, leaving careers that were of no interest to me anymore and then...
Here we go...2015!!!
Goals. Intentions. Dreams. Resolutions. Whatever you need to call them to get them done. Write them down and make them happen!
Maybe if I share some of mine, you'll share some of yours and we can hold each other accountable. And you can get an idea of what I mean by DREAM BIGGER.