Performing stand-up comedy in July 2011 at The Parlor Live in Bellevue, WA.

Performing stand-up comedy in July 2011 at The Parlor Live in Bellevue, WA.

On April 15, 2010, five years ago today, I stepped onstage for the first time to try my hand at stand-up comedy.  I had always wanted to try it and friends throughout the years told me I should be a comic.  As a New Years Resolution I made a promise to myself that I was going to do more of the things that I'd always wanted to do, so I enrolled in a class to help me get started.  Granted, this isn't the way most comics start out.  They usually go to an open mic and may or may not have told a few friends to come and watch them.  I packed the back of the club with all of my friends, which is a true testament to how awesome my people are. And even if I didn't deserve all of the laughing and applause, they sure made me feel like a million bucks!  And gave me enough courage to get back onstage, over and over again.  

I remember when I got off stage yelling in my head, "I DID IT!!!!  I FUCKING DID IT!!!"  And I knew that even if I never got back onstage, that I had made this happen for myself.  I had made this dream come true.  I was so damn proud of myself!

It seems like a lifetime ago.  Five years isn't a long time by any means, and yet so much has changed.  That was a completely different person, with a totally different outlook on life. Following that dream came from me having my heart broken (read: cynical and bitter as hell), making a commitment to myself to stop dating douche bags and to start actually living for myself instead of my next relationship (read: co-dependent).  I made a promise to myself that I'd be single for a minimum of one year (it ended up being several years), and focus on me and what I wanted to make happen in my life.  After jumping from relationship to relationship from when I was 19-30 years old (including a 2 year marriage!), with a maximum of 6 months single in between, I needed to find out who I was and what I wanted my life to be like.  And so I set out to make my dreams come true!

In the three years that I was doing comedy in Seattle, WA, I had some pretty sweet gigs. I even got paid for some of them!!  I performed with some really great comics, and even got to perform at The Comedy Store in Hollywood and La Jolla.  And I performed in Las Vegas once!! (My mom said she knew I'd perform in Vegas someday, she just thought it was going to be as a Vegas showgirl because she had a hard time keeping clothes on me when I was a kid.)  

Pauly Shore's Mom, Mitzi Shore, owned The Comedy Store and built a room specifically for female comics so they'd get more stage time.  I had the honor to perform in here and it was one of the best nights of my life.  September 20, 2011

Pauly Shore's Mom, Mitzi Shore, owned The Comedy Store and built a room specifically for female comics so they'd get more stage time.  I had the honor to perform in here and it was one of the best nights of my life.  September 20, 2011

Looking back it's pretty surreal.  And a part of me misses it, but I knew that in order to follow another dream of mine (traveling and living abroad), I had to let that one go.  I don't know if I'll ever get back onstage as a comic, but I will be onstage again.  The feeling of having an audience in front of you, staring at you and hanging on your every word would make most people want to barf, but for me it was intoxicating.  I loved the feeling of being able to use my words, my stories, to make people laugh.  I hope to be able to do that again someday soon, but instead of telling self-deprecating jokes and drinking until I black out, I can do it to inspire women all over the world to follow their dreams no matter how out there they may be!  And I'll be able to do it completely sober and fully present, a gift I gave to myself and now can share with the world.  

I've had lots of dreams and have been lucky enough to follow most of them.  Here are some fun pictures of me doing some cool stuff.  What dreams have you been able to follow?  I'd love to hear some of the cool things you've done.  

CLICK ON THE ALICE COOPER PICTURE TO SEE MORE FUN PICTURES OF ME FOLLOWING DREAMS!!! I was an extra on a Bigfoot movie that was produced by the Sci-Fi Channel.  I was a make-up artist for a talent agency in Seattle, doing hair and make-up for photo shoots and commercials.  I traveled to Paris, Peru, and Germany, just to name a few countries I've been to.  I'm currently in the Yoga Teacher Training program at Bliss Living Yoga in Grand Cayman. 

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